Bridget Dunstan

I haven't slept in almost three days. I haven't cried either The healers at St. Mungo's, my collegues, recommend that I speak with someone about what I saw, what I feel about what I saw, and what I should feel or express about what I saw. What am I supposed to feel? Right now, I'm just exhausted and terrified to fall asleep and ready to just get back to work.

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What should they care about what I feel anyway? Kherrie lost the man she loves because of some giant spider-looking creature. I mean, I cared about Marcus, because of Kherrie but I hardly knew him. Why do they care what I think?
I also have this urge to go out and get into trouble; drink and find a little bit of trouble, namely with a guy. Nikolai is too good of a guy, and I don't want to hurt him because I do like him. I haven't told him about my reckless streak after Hogwarts. There are only a handful of people that know about that wretched summer and the months following. I just don't know what to do right now, but I know that I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to relive it. I just want to bury it.
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Marcus Belby is a hero, and he needs to be remembered that way. He saved me and he saved a terrified little girl. I can never repay him, but people should know what a good man he was. He will be missed.

[Private to Kherrie]
Are things weird? They feel weird. But, they shouldn't be weird, right? I mean, it wasn't our fault! This is silly! I love you!
Lunch on Saturday? You're going to want to show me something!
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It's lonely in my flat without a roommate. Maybe I should get a pet. Suggestions? Nothing that sheds or demands tons of attention, though.

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Oh, Merlin... Oh, MERLIN! How am I supposed to look my best friend in the eye, ever again?! All those people saw us... this is just unbelievable! Who on earth puts a love potion in cupcakes, even if it was on accident? Thank Merlin we only at half of it. I don't even want to think about what would have happened had we each eaten an entire cupcake!
I love Kherrie, always have and always will... ugh, but why did I have to kiss her?! I don't love her or even like her!
I need a drink.
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I think I finally found the cure for my sweet tooth... you won't catch me eating bakery food again any time soon! Sorry, Kher, no offence! You're just so not my type!

[Private to Kherrington]
I did what you said; I was honest and I told him that I like him. Well, truth be told, I didn't say that so much as I kissed him and went from there. No protest, and he kissed me back - and then again after that. Lunch this week to catch up?
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This is the only time of year that I enjoy muggle candies and chocolate. There is something about jelly beans and chocolates around Easter time that are just so good. I don't know what it is, but ever since I was a child I have loved muggle jelly beans, so this is a favorite time of mine when it comes to sweets. There's a shop around the corner from the hospital that has amazing gourmet jelly beans and if it's not raining during my lunch break tomorrow, I'm walking over there to get a bag of them. They'll be gone before dinner, no joke.

Quiet night to be on-call. Of course, I probably shouldn't have admitted that because now it'll all change and I probably won't get to sit down again for a couple of hours...

Paris is beautiful and I don't think I'll be coming back to London... no one tell my superiors, though! Kherrie and I are currently sitting in the garden outside of our hotel, sipping tea and eating pastries and richest, most decadent cheeses and chocolates in the world. It's a fabulous morning.

Yesterday, we spent the morning being pampered at the spa and the afternoon shopping in Parisian boutiques. No judging, but I found the cutest pair of ankle boots that I simply had to have.

Enough being shallow - this weekend has really helped me to relax, and I think it's made all the difference in the world with Kherrie. It's been great getting away and spending time with my best friend, but I know it's back to reality tomorrow. One more night of fine dining before that, though!

Is it just me, or have these past couple of weeks just been boring? I wasn't involved with the Chinese delegates - which is fine, I picked up some extra hours in the clinic, and my paycheck looks very nice. I just don't know what to do with the money. I guess I could take a couple of days off and take a trip, go see my parents or just get away. Anyone have a private island I could borrow for a couple of days?

[Private to Charlie]
I'm glad that your sister is doing better. Let me know if there's anything you or your family need. It was nice to see you this week. Aside from making sure Ginny gets well, how have you been?
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[Private to Kherrie]
Get me out of this funk. I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm just in a perpetual sour mood. Ugh, I don't even want to be around me. What's wrong with me?
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Oh, I had a bizarre case today. A wizard tried to apparate with his dog and they ended up swapping some limbs. Thank Merlin that the guy's wife found him and had enough sense to not pass out but bring him and the dog to St. Mungo's. I wouldn't be surprised, though, if the wife has a hard time looking at her husband the same way for awhile. I find myself constantly amused by this job.

I need a frozen coffee; time for a Starbucks run!

Private to Kherrie
How was your Valentine's Day? I found myself at work, yet again this year. No big deal though, I got to see a few traumatic cases before getting off my shift. Men can be so stupid on that particular holiday - I'll tell you more the next time we get together.
On a more positive note, I went to that new club in Diagon Alley after work, just to get a drink and I landed myself a date on Friday night. Nicest guy, probably not my type, but I don't do well with what I consider my type, perhaps it's time to broaden my horizons. What should I wear? I want something neutral - I was thinking blue or black. Should I wear a dress? Or go more casual? I don't know where we're going.
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Thanks to everyone who made Valentine's Day eventful and entertaining - at work and outside of work!

So far, I've had three delusional men come in, brought in by their equally delusional girlfriends. Men are such babies when they have boo-boos. I mean, one of these guys nearly cut off his thumb... who told him he was allowed to cut meat?! This is a fabulous holiday for us on the Emergency Ward - those of us working, anyway.

Uh-oh... this guy coming in looks like he just set fire to his hair. My job keeps getting better and better. Wait until the poisoned love potions and sex-toy accidents start coming in in a few hours!

This is me, sighing dramatically. Maybe I can use this journal as a new tactic to find a roommate. First of all, I don't like living alone; it's boring. Second, it's not cheap living in London! The extra money I'm bringing in training new nurses just isn't cutting it anymore. I'm running out of ideas, so I'm reaching out to the people using these pretty cool new journals to see if anyone is looking for a roommate.

Oh, and to see if anyone around here knows a place to find good Chinese take away. I'm really in the mood for some good lo mein and kung pow chicken.

So, can anyone help a girl out?

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